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September 2008

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Have you ever..

loved somebody so much it
makes you cry, have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night, have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right...?




Hey, everyone that isn't reading this now because I havn't posted an entry with a point to it in ages, haha. ^_^

Well, I spilled my guts to, er.. this guy (lol) again, tonight. Aren't you suprised? Of course not. lol. It got me nowhere, again. I know I need to stop doing that, that I'm probablly making any chances I have with him go up in smoke. I just can't help it sometimes.

I wish I deserved him... He's fucking amazing.. Intelligent, funny, understanding, sweet.. hot as hell. lol. Hell, he's everything I could ever want in a guy, and then some. Frankly, he's the love of my life. But I guess that's what is wrong about this entire thing. I've worn my heart on my sleeve for most of the years that I've known him, and I suppose that was a mistake.. I need to learn how to 'open mouth - insert foot', heh. I never say the right things at the right times. I guess that's one of my major character flaws. Go figure. These feelings are going to be there for a long time, hiding somewhere inside me. If I can't express it properly, I can at least put a couple of song lyrics in here that do express it pretty well..

These lyrics pretty much scream my feelings loud and clear - not that I believe in angels (you'll understand what I mean when the second song is read).. But you know what I mean. >_> I know that he'd hear that, not that he'll ever read this, 'God' willing, but it won't matter. I think. I hope. =P Enjoy!? (Btw, theres a paragraph after the two songs.. and stuff.)

[x][X][x]


[x]-Avenged Sevenfold : Warmness On The Soul-[x] (Just strike out the 'hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make', 'unconditional love', and 'loves always been true' things. =\ More like 'my unconditional love', lmao..)


"Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.
And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you."


-=[x]=-


[x]-Savage Garden : I Knew I Loved You-[x]


">>Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
>>I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
>>I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
>>There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I've found my best friend
>>I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
>>I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
*A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you
>>I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life"


[x][X][x]


Well, Kris is coming over to drop off these compilation CDs that I let her borrow.. About time, it's been like a month. Hehe.. <3 So yeah, I'll probably hear her tap-tapping on my window pretty soon. I'm going to go.. I'll most likely pass the fuck out well before she leaves. ^_^ I'm fucking tired, lol. I promise that my next entry will not only have a point to it, but will be cheerful too! WOW!! Hehe. 'Nite lovelys. <33

P.S.:
I think that I may have almost given up entirely on love.
I hope that doesn't happen.
[x]<33

"I found you here, now please just stay for a while.. I can move on with you around. I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you.... I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time; But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)... Seize the day or die regretting the time you I lost, It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over..."

[x]-Avenged Sevenfold : Sieze The Day-[x] (I wish. Bah. =P)

Comments

Oh god you have Jimmy and my song on there...anyways honey bunny how the hell have you been my love??? I miss you so much ...you need to come back to jersey my love <333